A BIG thank you and what comes next.

First off, I have to say thank you to all of my wonderful family and friends. I was completely overwhelmed with the amount of love and support I received after posting my first blog. The emails, texts, phone calls, and the words of affirmation that all of you gave me was the support and confidence that I needed to continue. 
The big question that I received is what treatments have we already done and what is our next step, so let me explain...........
We have done six rounds of artificial insemination (IUI), which is a process of daily hormone injections and then the insemination.  All of those have either led to a pregnancy, which in return has resulted in a loss (all around 10 weeks) or no pregnancy.  We are now to the point where IUI is not worth the money or the risk of high multiples.  Last time we went in for our procedure I had 8 follicles (mature eggs).  I mean....we would love a big family, but 8 children at once is not safe for the babies or myself!!!  
I will begin in-vitro fertilization (IVF) this month.  For those of you who are not familiar with IVF, just google it. I don't want to get to intimate in my explanations :)  
This was a huge step emotionally, physically, and financially for us.  
Emotionally it means my hormones will be completely whacked and crazy (more than normal, ha) and Chad will once again have to regulate my shots and make sure I haven't completely fallen off the deep end.  Just imagine your hormones when you are pregnant and times that by ten. One minute I will be crying over a car commercial and the next minute I will be raging because there is a wrinkle in the sheets. I will mention this a lot during this blog.....Chad is amazing!!!  He has put up with so much and he still treats me like a princess. The hormone shots is probably the hardest on him. He hates to see me in pain, especially when it is pain I cannot control.  
Physically it means my stomach and backside will be sore and swollen from all the injections.  It also means large painful cysts that make me unable to do the simplest of activities.  The actual IVF procedure is painful in itself. 
Financially, it just means prioritizing what means the most to us as a family.  IVF is not covered by insurance, but we strongly believe it is what we are suppose to be doing to further our dreams of adding onto our family.  
Once again the question always comes up by many family and friends; Why do this? Why spend all this money? You should be happy with Kaylee. I just don't understand you throwing your money away. YES, these are actually sayings that people have said to us.  It is hard not to take it personally and we are still learning not to.  We just know in our heart of hearts that this is what we are suppose to be doing. We know our family is not complete and we are going to continue to try until we feel that our family is complete. No one can really understand the strong desire of wanting children until they have said they cannot.  There is a fire in us that refuses to give up on this journey.  
Please, keep myself, Chad, and Kaylee in your thoughts and prayers this month.  It is a big month for us and we are praying for a miracle. I leave you with this wonderful quote that both Chad and I have lived by.......... 
Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.