You would think with it being summer I would have more time to write, but for some reason this summer has come and gone quicker than previous ones. Every time I want to write or I have a thought it is either 2 o’clock in the morning or I am just plain lazy!!
With that being said, I have so much floating in my head I don’t even know where to start. My goal is to write an entry for my blog every day this week (please don’t hold me to this, ha)!! There have been so many things that I have wanted to share. So hold on to you reading glasses…..here we go…………
This summer has been a summer of firsts for our family. It is our first summer in our new house. It is the first summer that I have worked. It is the first summer that I have been pregnant (thank goodness for air conditioning). It is the first summer that Kaylee has been at an age to do some pretty remarkable accomplishments. With all these “firsts” come new surprises that we were not anticipating, but are enjoying. Who knew that walking down to our beach would bring so much simplicity and joy to our family? After a long HOT day at work the greatest pleasure it to watch my daughter and her daddy fish off our dock. Watching Kaylee grow into this beautiful young girl is the most amazing thing as a parent. She amazes me daily. She has overcome her fear of bike riding and she has now mastered jumping off our dock into the water. She has had many wonderful adventures with cousins, grandparents, and friends. She is loving her new role as being the Big Sister. She is as proud as any five year old could be with her new role in our family.
With all these joyous firsts in our family there are some firsts that I am looking forward to getting rid of after these beautiful babes are born. I miss being able to pick up Kaylee and hugging her whenever I want to. It is hard to look at her big brown eyes and tell her I can’t get on the floor to do a puzzle with her. She understands, but doesn’t at the same time. I can see in her little eyes she has so many questions. She know mommy isn’t sick, but doesn’t understand why I can’t do everything I use to be able to do with her.
It is so hard for me to sit and relax, especially when others around me are working. Poor Chad, has been working to the bone this summer. He has taken on the role of Mr. Mom as well as doing all the outdoor work for our family. My dr. has given me strict orders to not even carry a laundry basket. Of course that sounded great for about a week, and then I started feeling helpless. For those of you that know me…I do like things in order and clean. It is so hard for me to watch others do things for you. I have had to rely on my mom and mother-in-law to help with laundry and basic cleaning. I cannot express how much I appreciate all of Chad’s hard work and dedication this summer. There have been many times when he has come up from doing a load of laundry and I am just sitting there crying because I feel so helpless and useless. This happened just the other day and Chad came up to me and hugged me as I cried. He looked at me and said, “You are not helpless or useless. You are doing the biggest job of all. You are growing our two beautiful girls……….” Of course my cry immediately turned into a hysterical snot-dripping cry!!! He made me feel at peace with my “job”.
It has been hard watching many of my friends go out and have fun this summer. Don’t get me wrong…I am not complaining, but I do get down sometimes when I see or read about my friends being so active. I just can’t do a lot of activity. It does get lonely. Just last night I told Chad that I wished I could walk the art fairs or I wish I didn’t get so tired so I could go out with friends at night. I am so fortunate to have some really great friends that have come over to just “sit” with me. We as a family have been so blessed with great friends who we know we can count on for the simplest of things.
Being pregnant in the dead of summer has been a first I will be happy to be done with!! Ha!! I think our air conditioning has been working over time. There has been more than one occasion that Chad has worn a sweatshirt in the house because I have the air on so high. Oh well!!! J I have had so many people ask how I have been doing….to be honest I can’t complain!! Of course, I have sore hips, stretch marks that I want gone, aching feet, bruised ribs, but all is worth it when I am holding my two precious angels. I love singing to my girls while I am driving to work in the morning. I love when Kaylee grabs a book and reads to her baby sisters. I love when Chad comes and talks to his girls. I love hanging their itty-bitty clothes up in the nursery. I have been trying to soak every minute up of this pregnancy. We have waited so long to be where we are in our journey.
This summer of firsts has been so memorable and I know it will only get better with our growing family. It is hard to believe that in just two short months we will go from a family of three to a family of five. Wow!!!
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